Us...

I wrote this when I was afraid of losing the person who means the most to me. The sad part I wrote it and never showed it to him, because two days later I lost him. Now I just need to be able to share it...so I decided I would blog it. I wish he knew to look at this blog because then maybe he would see how serious I am about hating this break up.


Never thought I would feel this heart break
Never thought it would exist
Much worse than I would have ever guessed
More final than I would ever wish

One day everything is wonderful
Remembering God's perfect timing
Then everything changes the next day
Nothing feels quite the same

Still I sit here waiting for you to call
Waiting for a message about anything from you
I know it's silly because you won't
Keeping my phone by my side just in case

Your voice is stuck in my head
I hear you say 'I love you'
Your laugh is on constant repeat
I hear my voice echo you saying 'I love you too'

I can feel your arms around me
I remember the taste of your lips
I close my eyes and remember every moment
I look around and memories flood my thoughts

Now my heart is torn in two
However the whole thing belongs to you
I am terrified of this feeling
When are you coming back?

You are everything I need and want
You claimed the same thing towards me
Why would we want to throw this away?
I know deep down it is a mistake

I need you
You need me
We're better together than apart
We have a hold of each other's hearts

Your name is engraved on my heart
That's something that can not simply be erased
You are a part of me please stay
I don't want you to go away

This can't just become the past
What about our future we had planned?
The gifts and letters?
Where are they sitting now?

Look at all our pictures together
The laughs and memories with them
Love reflected from our eyes
Your smile and mine they can't lie

We love each other and it is true
This feeling was so new to both of us
Did it become to much?
Did fear and doubt sit in?

Together we could get through all of this
We're stronger and happier when together
God is right with us, and we know it
Sometimes we just don't see it right away

If we stick this out we'll see it through
Come out stronger, wiser, closer
Things have been fixed before
Why can't we give this all time to fix?

I want to always be right here for you
Holding you up through life's struggles
Like you have always been there for me
We are best friends and fit together so well

Do you really want this to change?
I love you and you love me
Don't sacrifice that lightly
Relationships take work not giving in and leaving

God's got us covered, we just have to hold on
Change may be good...but not separately
We can get through this, I know
With a deep breath, prayer and each other

God will see us through...
We can still be together.