Cant express feelings.....

I can't even fully express the feelings I have rushing through me. I am both hurt, heartbroken, confused, yet hopeful optimistic too. I don't know where you stand still and I just keep wanting to cry and bury myself somewhere. I just can't imagine you completely regretting and pushing aside everything we meant to each other. I just wish you could read this and see into my heart....there isn't a doubt in my mind how much I love you and how we belong together. I am not going to beg you or hunt you down....I'm simply going to wait here where you left me never loving you any less and cherishing every single memory we have made and holding out hope for many many more to come. :/ I.love.you. Please don't stay gone.

Truths

Life-
not all it may seem-
dark, trying
wanting to be done

Smiles-
not always true-
hiding hurt
behind a mask of lies

Tears-
not always a sign of weakness-
strong cry too
just may not always be noticed

Laughter-
not always genuine-
forced, fake
no telling what is really on the mind

Hearts-
not unbreakable-
strong, fragile
treat with care or it'll be gone

 Truth? -
not always clear-
present, important
do you know what is really truths?

Have you Ever....

Have You Ever
                        Not wanted to care anymore
                                                                   Given up
                                                                                Cried yourself to sleep
                                                                                                                    Regretted?
Do you know
                     You hurt me
                                        Took away my joy
                                                                    Broke my heart
                                                                                            Stole my laughter
                                                                                                                        Anything?
Did you know
                     I thought
                                  You were the one
                                                          You would be there
                                                                                         You were my everything
                                                                                                                               Then?
Can you see
                  The tear stains
                                         Pain behind every smile
                                                                              Forced laughter
                                                                                                       Heart break
                                                                                                                          Me?
Do you remember
                            The promises
                                                 Conversations
                                                                                      
                                                                        Memories
                                                                                        Us?
What happens when
                              I've found somone new
                                                                 Don't look back
                                                                                           Lie again
                                                                                                          Forget?
Who am I
               Crying hurt
                                Betrayed damaged
                                                               Wishing for change
                                                                                             Now?
New Future
                   New Chance.