Cant express feelings.....

I can't even fully express the feelings I have rushing through me. I am both hurt, heartbroken, confused, yet hopeful optimistic too. I don't know where you stand still and I just keep wanting to cry and bury myself somewhere. I just can't imagine you completely regretting and pushing aside everything we meant to each other. I just wish you could read this and see into my heart....there isn't a doubt in my mind how much I love you and how we belong together. I am not going to beg you or hunt you down....I'm simply going to wait here where you left me never loving you any less and cherishing every single memory we have made and holding out hope for many many more to come. :/ I.love.you. Please don't stay gone.

I Am!
by John Clare
I am! yet what I am none cares or knows, My friends forsake me like a memory lost; I am the self-consumer of my woes, They rise and vanish in oblivious host, Like shades in love and death's oblivion lost; And yet I am! and live with shadows tost Into the nothingness of scorn and noise, Into the living sea of waking dreams, Where there is neither sense of life nor joys, But the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems; And e'en the dearest—that I loved the best— Are strange—nay, rather stranger than the rest. I long for scenes where man has never trod; A place where woman never smil'd or wept; There to abide with my creator, God, And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept: Untroubling and untroubled where I lie; The grass below—above the vaulted sky.

Truths

Life-
not all it may seem-
dark, trying
wanting to be done

Smiles-
not always true-
hiding hurt
behind a mask of lies

Tears-
not always a sign of weakness-
strong cry too
just may not always be noticed

Laughter-
not always genuine-
forced, fake
no telling what is really on the mind

Hearts-
not unbreakable-
strong, fragile
treat with care or it'll be gone

 Truth? -
not always clear-
present, important
do you know what is really truths?

Control Freaks

There is so much pain, hurt, and control in this world. Why would someone who is suppose to help benefit another cause harm on them. There is such a thing as guidance and then becoming an oppressive obsessive person who is a control freak is an all together different thing. Don't they realize their actions simply push people away. They aren't benefiting anyone and frankly they should soon realize that they do not have ultimate control over everyone. It's just one of those moments where you shake your head wondering what on earth goes through people's minds when acting like that.

Simply I just wonder

I wish I had a magic looking glass that would allow me to see into the future and hopefully see my life as I imagine it will be. I wonder who will be there with me, next to me still making me smile and laugh, I wonder what I will be doing... simply I just wonder! ♥ ~

Life experiences influence reactions

Learned today that the way I interpret things is because of life experiences. Usually how we look at life depends on the different experiences we have had throughout our own life. One person may read or view on thing a certain way because of a past negative event they went through, while another may see it completely differently because of something they went through. So see when you want to make a joke about someone maybe reacting in what you think is a 'weird way' to something which you think is normal. Stop and don't judge! Because we never know for sure where those emotions and reactions are coming from.