I keep trying to forget about the past but it's not all that easy to get it to just go away.
Sometimes I catch myself missing old inside jokes with my friends. Some days I just want to go exploring again with you. Some nights I find myself still missing random late night car rides with the bass up. Some times I really just miss the days when we would all go hang out at the park and swim in the lake. Some nights I really miss movie nights with my friends. Some days I wish I could go back to playing tag at recess again.
Then there are other thoughts..
Sometimes I remember stupid choices I made...wishing that mistake could be erased but it keeps reappearing. Some days I wake up hoping for things to be like they use to be then reality sets in. Some nights I wake up shaken and bothered and not even entirely sure why. Some days I carry my broken heart on my sleeve and the scars of life show. Some nights I fall asleep crying everything just taking its toll on me.
Then at times I find strength and encouragement....
I remember the times in the past when I had my best friend supporting me. I remember that during those mistakes and problems I wasn't totally alone. Some days the sun seems a little bit brighter and life a little more bearable.
But in reality nothing changes...the past doesn't go away.
I may not live in the past anymore but it's attached to me I can't seem to get rid of it. Oh the things it messes up.
I lost the one person I always had in my life and always wanted. He didn't believe. Life weighs a person down and they hit low points and sometimes can't shake it all off.
The past should be a lesson but it can be so painful and so strong little progress is made from it.
No one ever said life would be easy....but I just wish the past would go away and reminders would vanish with it too.....
Sometimes I catch myself missing old inside jokes with my friends. Some days I just want to go exploring again with you. Some nights I find myself still missing random late night car rides with the bass up. Some times I really just miss the days when we would all go hang out at the park and swim in the lake. Some nights I really miss movie nights with my friends. Some days I wish I could go back to playing tag at recess again.
Then there are other thoughts..
Sometimes I remember stupid choices I made...wishing that mistake could be erased but it keeps reappearing. Some days I wake up hoping for things to be like they use to be then reality sets in. Some nights I wake up shaken and bothered and not even entirely sure why. Some days I carry my broken heart on my sleeve and the scars of life show. Some nights I fall asleep crying everything just taking its toll on me.
Then at times I find strength and encouragement....
I remember the times in the past when I had my best friend supporting me. I remember that during those mistakes and problems I wasn't totally alone. Some days the sun seems a little bit brighter and life a little more bearable.
But in reality nothing changes...the past doesn't go away.
I may not live in the past anymore but it's attached to me I can't seem to get rid of it. Oh the things it messes up.
I lost the one person I always had in my life and always wanted. He didn't believe. Life weighs a person down and they hit low points and sometimes can't shake it all off.
The past should be a lesson but it can be so painful and so strong little progress is made from it.
No one ever said life would be easy....but I just wish the past would go away and reminders would vanish with it too.....
