The Past

I keep trying to forget about the past but it's not all that easy to get it to just go away.

Sometimes I catch myself missing old inside jokes with my friends. Some days I just want to go exploring again with you. Some nights I find myself still missing random late night car rides with the bass up. Some times I really just miss the days when we would all go hang out at the park and swim in the lake. Some nights I really miss movie nights with my friends. Some days I wish I could go back to playing tag at recess again.

Then there are other thoughts..
Sometimes I remember stupid choices I made...wishing that mistake could be erased but it keeps reappearing. Some days I wake up hoping for things to be like they use to be then reality sets in. Some nights I wake up shaken and bothered and not even entirely sure why. Some days I carry my broken heart on my sleeve and the scars of life show. Some nights I fall asleep crying everything just taking its toll on me.

Then at times I find strength and encouragement....
I remember the times in the past when I had my best friend supporting me. I remember that during those mistakes and problems I wasn't totally alone. Some days the sun seems a little bit brighter and life a little more bearable.

But in reality nothing changes...the past doesn't go away.

I may not live in the past anymore but it's attached to me I can't seem to get rid of it. Oh the things it messes up.
I lost the one person I always had in my life and always wanted. He didn't believe. Life weighs a person down and they hit low points and sometimes can't shake it all off.

 The past should be a lesson but it can be so painful and so strong little progress is made from it.
No one ever said life would be easy....but I just wish the past would go away and reminders would vanish with it too.....
 

The thoughts inside your mind.

Have you ever thought that every person who walks by you is thinking about a different thing. Every person is dwelling on something going on in their lives, many people are thinking about what makes them want to go sit in a corner all alone and cry. No two people see every situation the same and they think and think until they are so upset or confused that they just want to quit. For some reason today as I walked into school this thought was going through my mind... as I think about people thinking about life what are they thinking about in their own minds?

Becareful for the mind is one place where we can easily get lost. Because in our minds we can make up whatever we want, and imagine whatever we please. But we must be careful because otherwise we may try to escape from the truth of reality.