Us...

I wrote this when I was afraid of losing the person who means the most to me. The sad part I wrote it and never showed it to him, because two days later I lost him. Now I just need to be able to share it...so I decided I would blog it. I wish he knew to look at this blog because then maybe he would see how serious I am about hating this break up.


Never thought I would feel this heart break
Never thought it would exist
Much worse than I would have ever guessed
More final than I would ever wish

One day everything is wonderful
Remembering God's perfect timing
Then everything changes the next day
Nothing feels quite the same

Still I sit here waiting for you to call
Waiting for a message about anything from you
I know it's silly because you won't
Keeping my phone by my side just in case

Your voice is stuck in my head
I hear you say 'I love you'
Your laugh is on constant repeat
I hear my voice echo you saying 'I love you too'

I can feel your arms around me
I remember the taste of your lips
I close my eyes and remember every moment
I look around and memories flood my thoughts

Now my heart is torn in two
However the whole thing belongs to you
I am terrified of this feeling
When are you coming back?

You are everything I need and want
You claimed the same thing towards me
Why would we want to throw this away?
I know deep down it is a mistake

I need you
You need me
We're better together than apart
We have a hold of each other's hearts

Your name is engraved on my heart
That's something that can not simply be erased
You are a part of me please stay
I don't want you to go away

This can't just become the past
What about our future we had planned?
The gifts and letters?
Where are they sitting now?

Look at all our pictures together
The laughs and memories with them
Love reflected from our eyes
Your smile and mine they can't lie

We love each other and it is true
This feeling was so new to both of us
Did it become to much?
Did fear and doubt sit in?

Together we could get through all of this
We're stronger and happier when together
God is right with us, and we know it
Sometimes we just don't see it right away

If we stick this out we'll see it through
Come out stronger, wiser, closer
Things have been fixed before
Why can't we give this all time to fix?

I want to always be right here for you
Holding you up through life's struggles
Like you have always been there for me
We are best friends and fit together so well

Do you really want this to change?
I love you and you love me
Don't sacrifice that lightly
Relationships take work not giving in and leaving

God's got us covered, we just have to hold on
Change may be good...but not separately
We can get through this, I know
With a deep breath, prayer and each other

God will see us through...
We can still be together.

Smile

I can smile and fool the world

I can smile and fool my family

I can smile and fool my friends

But I don't want to smile and fool you

I want you to know that I am hurting

I want you to know that I miss you

I want you to know that I love you

But I can't do anything 'til you realize that you are/do too.

Relax God's got a plan

There are those days when you want to ask why you have to deal with stuff?
But then you look around at the people that God has placed in your life.
Then you realize all though times may be tough God has given you everyone and everything you need to get through it.

God is so good to us, and often times we do not realize it. He brings the perfect people into our lives, right when we are completely ready for them. It's even better when you know the people He's brought into your life are there to stay.

Also certain people can make you smile even on your worst day. So as hard as it may be relax and know that God has a plan and is in control. :)

people

People don't realize that when you say something you mean it. And it's like seriously we aren't all little kids anymore. Take us at our word and just believe us. We know the world around us, but eventually you have to let us make our own decisions.  And please stop making our lives more difficult and treating us like we are too young or inferior.

Chance

Some days it all seems too much

You want to throw in the towel...and give up

The friends who once were there

Hurt you and don't seem to care

You keep on smiling

While the days are never ending

They may mean well

But it seems you're going through hell

You've been lost before

Doubts were asailing you to the core

The fear of forever alone

It chills you to the bone

Then suddenly it changes

Everything rearranges

Feelings you can't explain

Things will never be the same

Hold your breath and take a chance

See what may come from that first dance



Always love you

No matter what people say

No matter what people do

No matter what comes our way

I will always love you. 

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Cross at Calvary

What is it that represents so much for so many?

What changed so many lives like dark to light?

What showed the world truth and power?

Why is the place of the skull known?

Where was holy blood shed for others?

Where was unfailing love poured out?

What could a simple tree become?

What do three simple nails have in common?

Where was a sign hung above?

Why do we have hope and salvation?

How can we have unwavering faith?

One word answers all of these and forever will it stand

…the Cross at Calvary.

I see the pain

"I see the pain and the hurt in this world. I've listened to your story before.

I may not be able to change everything and make all the pain go away.

You may have too much pain to bear on your own.

I can't change everything, no I'm just one person here.

There is doubt and fear but there's another way...if you make that change.

But we have to help look around...see what's going on.

Instead of fear and worry it will be replaced with safety and hope.

Look around see the people hurting. Calling out but no one answers.

They can't see the light around the corner, we aren't helping them to see how life could be.

Children hungry watching mommy and daddy die. No one to wipe away the tears.

To take them in their arms no their all alone. How can we ignore them.

You may have too much pain to bear on your own.

I can't change everything, no I'm just one person here.

There is doubt and fear but there's another way...if you make that change.

But we have to help look around...see what's going on.

Instead of fear and worry it will be replaced with safety and hope.

A young girl sits in her room holding tight to the bottle. Working up the nerve.

The knife is laying next to her

He's still around...but now you know someone oh so much better!

I've reached that point where your world decides to turn upside down again.
I still see the person who made me want to give up on love.
Occassionally...I wonder why I had to meet all of them in the past.
Friends we will stay... that's clear to see...and it's better that way.

Just when you feel like giving up is the only choice left.
A person who seems like they could be your other half appears.
Now you see why things needed to change, and you hope this time it's real and lasts.
Good friends now...but maybe we'll see...we could possibly be more...in a way more complete.